Ferne McCann has opened up about her struggle to stay positive throughout her pregnancy with her first baby, admitting that she 'has shed tears'.
The mum-to-be announced that she was pregnant with ex-boyfriend Arthur Collins earlier this year and has since decided to raise her baby as a single parent due to the circumstances surrounding her relationship.
Speaking exclusively to OK! magazine, the 26-year-old star admitted she was 'initially devastated' when faced with the reality of bringing up her baby alone.
'Initially I was devastated. What I had planned and was getting excited about had disappeared in a matter of moments. It was so hard to deal with what happened, but then I realised it was not about me but about my child. I'll do my best for my baby.'
Since sharing the news that she plans to be a single mum, Ferne has received an outpouring of support. But despite receiving admiration from friends and followers, the reality TV star has admitted that she is finding her pregnancy difficult.
'I thoroughly intend to bring up my baby as a single mum like many other women have done in the past. And I will do my best for this baby as a single mum.'
The TOWIE star continued, 'I'm trying to keep positive, because I am excited that I'm going to have a baby.
'There are times I feel emotional. Not in a negative way, like I'm feeling really sad. But my hormones are all over the place. But I never feel lonely as I have my baby.'
In the candid interview, Ferne revealed that heartbreakingly she is often close to tears.
The mum-to-be said, 'Just sitting here talking about it makes me feel emotional, just contemplating what a life-changing experience I've been through. I have shed tears, but I always try to keep it to myself.
'But because of the situation I'm in, I have tried to keep those moments to myself. I could burst into tears right now.'
Read the full interview in the latest issue of OK! magazine.
